Four.

There's been a lot of stuff that has gone on since I last wrote. (Although, it's only been like... a week since I last posted, I think.)

My dog, Sparky, who I've had since I was eight, got out of the yard a few days ago. it was an accident, a miscommunication between my mother and my father and the back gate was left open. Sparky is a chow/black lab mix. He's about 14 years old now, going a bit blind and is a little senile. He attacked our neighbor's shih tzu (which by the way, is an ugly rat of a dog and I applaud him for his choice of victim.) , but didn't injure the dog too badly. Although our neighbors are not pressing charges, my parents now see Sparky as a liability. There are a lot of little kids in the neighborhood and the neighborhood they live in has a two dog limit per household (dumb, I know.) and my parents currently have four dogs. Basically, Sparky has to be euthanized (due to the fact he's 14, and vicious/a liability) and it's been an upsetting week for me partly due to this new development.

Chevy was neutered yesterday. (Chevy is 7 months old and lives with me, the other four dogs live with my parents.) It was very nerve-wracking for me, as I have a deathly fear of anesthesia, and my dog had to be put under anesthesia for this procedure. Chevy is my baby, and I love him to death, I don't know what I would have done if something had happened to him. I've had him since he was 4 1/2 weeks old-- hand feeding, spoon feeding and bottle feeding was a constant with him for the first two weeks or so. Then there were the countless nights of worry over whether he would survive the worm and flea treatments at such a young age. I love him more than anything, (Sparky excluded, because he was my first love and will forever have my heart.) and I would do anything for him. So you can understand my fear of his reaction to the anesthesia after so much time, effort and money on this little precious life. Surgery went well, I was told that he was one of the most well behaved dogs to come in for a long time. I was very proud of him!

Now, I've got a doctor's appointment in the morning, I'm going to work out with my friend Ali, I have to take my neighbor's dog out for an hour and do a speech test online by 12 midnight. That's a lot to get done, but I'm excited to do it. I'm especially excited about the working out, I'm trying to lose 60 pounds (or thereabouts) to get back into shape and be happy with myself. I've been eating at home, working out and I worked with a personal trainer today. Melanie at Gold's Gym is AMAZING. I love her. It's too bad that I cant afford a personal trainer-- $55/hr sessions are just too expensive for me right now. I'm hoping that I can go to as many classes as possible and work out on my own and get where I need to be. I want to be beautiful inside AND out. I am a good person, and I want it to show and be a part of my life.

Other than that, I can't think of much else that's going on-- I have ADHD/ADD/Dyslexia testing on the 19th at the NeuroPsycological Clinic here in Austin. I hope they'll find out what's causing my issues in school. (P.S. Spell Check is helping me write this, hopefully I don't have dyslexia, but at 19, when I'm still reading things incorrectly, I worry.

Well, I'm going to head off to bed... got to get up early in the morning and get my stuff done!!

I love you.

xxoo BMC